Where to start? My name is Johoanna and I'm 37 and single. I've had a big "spiritual" awakening this year. I grew up in the Christian church and left just a couple of years ago. For me, leaving was the best thing I ever did. Now I feel free to be me, to be who I was created to be. I still believe in God, but Goddess as well. I've been studying pagan religions this year and feel more connected to Mother Earth than I ever have.
So what's all this got to do with being poly? Well, it means I'm now free to express myself fully and freely. I do believe I am poly. I've only ever been in monogomous relationships. This is a big step for me, even admitting my "polyness". Now, how to meet like-minded people in this town? Orange (NSW) tends live in the 50's when it comes to sexuallity. Is it any wonder I want to leave? I know too many people in this town, most of them are Christian. Being openingly pagan in this town is bad enough (which I'm not, I'm still firmly in the broom closet, only a couple of close friends know). Even now at home I have to be careful. I'm currently sharing with an ex-boyfriend (long story, if you want to know the details please ask otherwise I'll leave them out).
I'm currently planning to move away from Orange. I certainly don't want to go back to Sydney or any other major centre. I'm a country girl and need to be in the country. I feel grounded and at peace with the world out here. I'll be going up to Nimin early next year for a few weeks camping. If I like it I'll stay. If I get any other offers I'll investigate those as well.
What am I looking for in a relationship? I'm actually not sure. Like I said, I'm very new to all this. I know I want to be in a relationship where I'm loved and respected, whether that's with one or more people...who knows? Am I bi or straight? I think you could class me as bi-curious. There. I said it. Now I have to remember that my sexuallity is not a dirty thing like is taught in the church. I am who I am and I need to accept and be proud of that.
Anyway, enough rambling for today.
